Trump is President. This is how I’m feeling.

Trump is President. This is how I’m feeling.

On the morning of the EU referendum results, I woke up at 6am and eagerly grabbed my phone to find out the results. I was so confident the result would be remain, that I barely thought about what my reaction might be if we left. As we all know, I was naively wrong. I curled up in bed and cried for a full hour. I then got up and watched the news unfold and as they say, the rest was history.

On the 9th of November, I woke up at 5am and argued with myself for about 30 minutes on whether I should check my phone. I could look and find out Hilary is president and be overjoyed, the first female president of the USA! A step forward for society! But, what if Trump won? I wasn’t so sure this time around that good would trump evil. I, as we all know, was right to be cautious. My heart sank as I read the news, but I didn’t cry, I’d prepared myself this time.

I don’t know why I’m talking about any of this on this blog, we write about food and restaurants and never really get into how we’re feeling about things going on in our lives or the world. But I just came back from lunch with my dad, where he told me he was happy “that lying Clinton” wasn’t President.

My heart breaks when I hear family members express completely opposite views to my own.

After the EU referendum results, I didn’t speak to my dad or step mum for months. They were pro-leave. I didn’t see my little brother and sister for months and missed them terribly. They didn’t understand why I had to distance myself from them. I needed to take care of myself.

Everybody is entitled to their own opinion. Everybody is entitled to vote for their beliefs. But these two campaigns were driven by hate and to know I have family that endorse those beliefs, is heartbreaking.

Trump being elected is so much worse than us leaving the EU. And the fact that I personally know people who agree with Trump and his views… I can’t comprehend it. Brexit was fuelled by a fear of immigration, but Trump stands for so much more than that.

Donald Trump doesn’t believe I exist. I am bisexual. My family knows that but it’s never spoken about. I’m in a straight relationship, so it doesn’t matter. But Trump doesn’t think I exist, and Pence thinks I can be cured with electric shocks. And my dad, thinks that’s okay.

And if he doesn’t know any of this, it’s because he chooses to ignore it.

The POTUS wants to make abortion illegal, and punish the woman who need to have abortions. We’re taking steps backwards.

For a father to support a man who is a rapist, and sexually assaults women and brags about it, baffles me. How can you not care about the safety of women when you have four daughters of your own.

I am heartbroken over the result, and this post is just about how the election has affected me. I’m a white woman, so I have privilege. There are thousands of people that have it much worse than I do.